11.22.2011
Long story short. First of all, I am sorry, for whatever I've done wrong, doesn't matter if I realize it or not. I apologize for whatever depressed you, and please forgive my rudeness. I know just sorry wouldn't do, and most of the time I can't control myself of doing it again. But still, I have the heart of felling guilty about it. Does that count as something?
Well, second, I don't want a break up. But I am felling not easy quite a while. I feel like our relationship is going something like a downhill, or may be not, I might just happen to be dreamtalking. But I don't feel as confident as before. As I said, I don't know what changed, probably as you said is the relationship changes within time, change the form and people. I don't want to dig into details to find if it's true or not.
I love you, as much as before, as much as what I said. Like the hottest flame, like the brightest star, like the purest dream, like the sweetest smile.
I don't know why you are not happy. Well, may be cause we won't be seeing each other this week, and so am I, feeling a little bit sad. Then is this the time to tell me you will miss me? To tell me you love me? Give me some words as I am leaving? I don't think we've gone that far to some point we don't say anything motional to each other, and when somebody is not around, we don't mind at all. No, that will be thirty years ahead of time. No, we are still in the relationship should be crazy sometimes. We do, crazy on being mad at each other. That's what I'mworring about.
I will sleep, but not good night, simple as it won't be.
I'll miss you, and hope you do too.