Live in the world of words

January 6th
I was surprised to find on BBC that North Korea exclaimed that they had successfully developed their H bomb today. Honestly i used to think North Korea is China's good neighbour and we are in good relationships, but when i came to Singapore, i learned more about communism and what North Korea was like, which led to my bad impression of North Korea.
I am glad to see that China claimed that they did not support such behavior. However, China is called "the best ally" of North Korea by the westerners on BBC, probably because we have helped them in 1950s. It seems that westerners still have prejudice on Chinese race and PRC nation, which needs us to put in great effort to gradually change our impression on the world.

North Korea是不是朝鲜

英语十五分的学渣路过

你的影子闪，进了我的心房，你的言语你的思想，也时常叫人神往！

其实我想说能不能不要那么长

加油

I feel sorry for giving up this…i am going to pick it up again

Jan.15
Today there is an acident happened in France that one people was brain-dead, while five others are in hospital in serious condition in a medicine trial.
As a student who want to go further in medicine field in future, i feel stressful and i can feel the great responsibility upon my shoulders. It is time for me to realize how serious and fragile life is and what attitude i should adapt towards medicine field.

棒棒哒

Jan.16
First of all I would like to thank all those of you who support me and like me. It is really a great pleasure to see your comments. In fact I am not persistant enough as I gave up writing this journal for about a week in the past. Therefore I need your support as well as supervision.
I went swimming with my roommate today and on the way home we discussed the issue about migrants in the swimming pool in Germany. Basically, those migrants acted impolitely in the swimming pools, including chatting loudly and being unrespectful to female swimmers. It is a disappointing news for me as Germany used to be my dream country and I used to be eager to go there for further study. However, alongside the intake of a great number of migrants, many social, political as well as economic problems turned up. Germany is no longer a country which is able to maintain the social stability and growing economy, and it is going to be a hard time for all the German people as well as their president.
Thinking of those days when I believed that those Europian countries should take in as many migrants as possible for humanitarian reason, I realized how immature and naive I used to be, or even now. If we put too much burden on our shoulder for the sake of other people, we may end up being miserable, and at that time, nobody is going to sympathize us.
顺便问一下翻译是否很有必要

日本其实也不错，楼楼考虑考虑？

Today I watched the movie The Fault In Our Stars, and cried like a three-year-old little girl once again. if you are to ask me why i did not read the book, it is because i do not have time. in fact, even watching a movie should be a luxury for me at this point in time. I only have one week to me O-levels, which is kind of equivalent to Zhongkao or Gaokao in China, and I am still doing this shit. i shall not regret, because all of us shouldnt.
the movie is about two dying kids, or rather three, all having cancer, one dead with the other two apparently alive. truth be told i have always been scared of death, scared of terminal illnesses, scared of leaving this world. I tried to imagine myself getting cancer for several times, with different kinds of cancers, and I can hardly imagine what life will be like. during one period i like to go to leukemia Ba and Osteosarcoma Ba and read the life stories of young patients, about their journey from being diagnosed to death, their feelings throughout the battle with cancer. those stories let me question the meaning of life. Like Augustus, i have always been afraid of oblivion. i wish I could be a superhero, a doctor, a scientist, or at least someone important on paper. in order to get out of this oblivion, i strived as hard as i could to go abroad and always explore my new potentials. sometimes i am able to feel my utterable ambition clearly: i don't want to be forgotten. i want to be remembered. I hope to leave something on this planet for our offsprings to admire.
our days are numbered, our life is not. Between zero and one there are infinite numbers. in the limited days we can have endless happy memories. Probably cherishing all we got is the best choice. The reality is that most of us will remain in oblivion for the rest of our lives and die due to some reasons, probably cancer, probably not.
however, like what Anne said in her diary: be happy.